At The Bottom

by Odium

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released April 20, 2009

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Track Name: Oblivion's Gates
Some doors should have never been opened....
I always felt the friction and every night I saw the spark
In part it's where the paranoia starts
First with intolerence, pathetic ignorence, indifferent fucking pigs who watched in silence as it all came apart
What do you care now
Now that our choices are dwindling
What do you care how many wonders lay dead at our feet
Regarded with suspicion when nothing else was ever earned
We've turned the tables on ourselves
Try to advance but never learn
Promises never met, a biased temperment
Knowledge dissintigrates when it all comes crashing down
Devolving right from the start
Let go of my hand
You'll never stop this
What do you care now
Now that our choices are dwindling
What do you care how many wonders lay dead at our feet
Let go of my hand
So I can violate your trust
Let go of my hand
You'll never stop this.......
Devolving right from the start
Let go of my hand
You'll never stop this
Give me the shapes to create life and I'll make you a gun
With outstretched arms I'll cut the light from your eyes
Hate me, forgive me
Your god will never save me
No point in waiting
Faith seems so useless lately
A world evolved can't find it's own way
Through oblivion's gates
(let go of my hand)
Devolving right from the start
Let go of my hand
You'll never stop this
Devolving right from the start
Let go of my hand
You'll never stop yourselves
Track Name: Frailty
So this is what it's like to be forgotten
It's been days since I've seen anybody
My escape is nothing more than a cage
Just push a little furhter
So I can taste your tears
What does it matter at all
You're just another statistic
When things get slow
(hold it in just for a moment)
Then some of us see what nobdy wanted
The frailty that slipped out of frame
The things that were safe are somehow forgotten
Some things will always be waiting
We are an inhumane and decrepid flaw that forces love to crawl on all fours
It flows above our common body and stays from the line of general sight
What does it matter at all
You're just another statistic
When things get slow
(hold it in just for a moment)
Then some of us see what nobdy wanted
The frailty that slipped out of frame
The things that were safe are somehow forgotten
Some things will always be waiting
Am I to assume that all this worthless obsession can't dissolve in clear waters
I watched it fall apart from the inside
I'll never find a way out
I couldn't let it go
It's something I can't hold
You're my weakness
You're my frailty
Track Name: Serenity's End
You left me here to die
I look out to the sun as it descends behind this dead city
Feel the heat on my face, see the broken frames as they swell behind my eyes
I hate these tears of freedom
I searched for a new name, this place was never mine
Yet still it remains but it's just not the same
In here you never left me........
In my darkest hours I felt the end of serenity
Remember the hope you gave me
I move towards the light
I tried to look up
My only company is walls
You've taken every dream
Now it's starting again, I swear the trust will end
She's the only one that could save me
I know your concrete heaven
A prison for my mind without a star in sight
Although it dulls the pain
I'm still eaten by flies
In here you never left me........
In my darkest hours I felt the end of serenity
Remember the hope you gave me
I move towards the light
I choked down the pills with Jesus by my side
Now I will become my own worst enemy before the end
What if I never wake up from this nightmare I've created in my head
How did these little hands get so cold
How did they get so cold
When I die can I follow you ....everywhere
You can't follow me into my head but I can keep you here as long as I want
This place was safe until you came
In here no one will leave me again but I keep reliving the worst of the moments
Killing me slowly, it keeps on repeating over again
Over again
Track Name: Population Zero
When none of you can be questioned
As it spreads the regrets are trying
Too many days spent above unchallenged but it all ends here
If I could breath again I'd look down at the writing on the wall
Regret these narcasistic tenencies I'll die before I crawl
Haunted alone by a vision
As wheels turn a young life washed away
Can't be saved
There is nothing but us in a hallway
in the place where they all used to pray
If I could breath again I'd look down at the writing on the wall
Regret these narcasistic tenencies I'll die before I crawl
Before I..........Crawl
Become a shadow of you
Wasted every trace
Strong enough to face my well earned shame
Don't ever ask me if you can ease the strain
It's washed away
For all to see
You will complete us when all else fails
Then we won't ever shift
The blame
Track Name: At The Bottom
I see through your bullshit halo
I am garbage grinning through your spit
I am the flaw in your perfect pattern
Give me the rope
I'll do the rest myself
I'm not perfect so stay the fuck away
You can't fix the broken and make them whole again
I'll trust in you to leave me at the bottom
My place in the dust is shallow
I will always remember what I was
Come live one day under these chains
This goddamn glass is not half full
I'm not perfect so stay the fuck away
You can't fix the broken and make them whole again
I'll trust in you to leave me at the bottom
I once was something more in a life that escaped me
The question isn't how but why you kept us here
A tired mind strung out too far
It's all for nothing
Believe in me and I will let you down
Just like I always do
In times of need I will slip away
I will be perfect like you
If there's still love somewhere down there, it's so buried under all the shit and hopelessness
I wanna destroy everything beautiful in you
I'm not perfect so stay the fuck away
You can't fix the broken and make them whole again
I'll trust in you to leave me at the bottom
Track Name: The Failure
It all started with a whisper that followed me home
I felt the vomit trickle off my lips and splash on the floor
Peering through a broken window pane i see the shape stand out against the street light
I hear the unfamiliar knocking
Something has gotten inside
In time you'll know you're nothing
Inside you can feel me crawling
My tormentor lives in every shadow
The only way to heaven was to go through hell
As I look up to these stars
So close could almost touch them yet so far
From my sheltered
Exsistence
My mind's a feeding ground
It will all end with a whisper as I lose feeling in my face
The clouds open up
I felt the presence of the failure's
Eyes always watching and I know it will never
Give up
My tormentor lives in every shadow
The only way to heaven was to go through hell
As I look up to these stars
So close could almost touch them yet so far
From my sheltered
Exsistence
My mind's a feeding ground
You were the only star in this place of ashes
I'm dragging this cross behind me
You watched me wallow absence
You took me to a place where I could never die
Something has stocked across the boundaries through all defences and crawled into my
Thorn filled cradle
I couldn't change it all for you
You know you can't resist me
If I follow you blindly can you promise me god
As I look up to these stars
So close could almost touch them yet so far
From my sheltered
Exsistence
My mind's a feeding ground
I am the voice that reassures you that you're really nothing
I am the spit you didn't have the confidence to whipe off your face
I was there behind her eyes the last time you ever saw her
I was in the walls every night when you cried yourself to sleep
I am the reason you had a face not even a mother could love
I fueled your hate for all those who've left you and I'm not about to let up
I am the Failure
I'll never go away
Track Name: It Goes Cold
Fuck, kill, release
Shedding everything I loved until I am free
Almost pornographicly satisfying scene
A rope pulled tight the dangling feet
It all seems so final
When I play with you this way
It came to life when I was defenseless
(there's no one here scream all you want)
The setting sun reflects the helpless
(there's no one here scream all you want)
I felt so alive today I just had to paint you blue
What if I lost my sanity
Would I be sick or me or something new
It all seems so final
When I play with you this way
Now we're alone in this
Now we're alone in bliss
It came to life when I was defenseless
(there's no one here scream all you want)
The setting sun reflects the helpless
(there's no one here scream all you want)
Put the locust in the syringe
Everything's plagerized
Every urge a sin
My life is a consiquence now
My past is better left unspoken
My words leave an empty hole
My spirit is broken
A breach in the walls of paradise may be the last thing we all know
I'll tear every feather from your wings and smell your skin as it goes cold.......
Track Name: Lifting The Veil
It was my first day in a life with regrets
Now I count my loathing in days
Who the fuck were you to take my innocence
Nothing was ever broken
There was never anything to be fixed
You used to sheild me from the pain 'til you became the goddamn catalyst
The marching drones don't know a thing
While all hope dies under their feet
Head to a path untold with moral depravity
Where do we turn when our idea of justice is blatant corruption
The crown became a noose
Our time is slowly ending
The system is flawed let the cycle begin again
Splitting at the seems it was patchwork at best
Writhing as old wounds burst open
Time and again I tried to bleed your poison out but the infection spread
The marching drones don't know a thing
While all hope dies under their feet
Head to a path untold with moral depravity
Where do we turn when our idea of justice is blatant corruption
The crown became a noose
Our time is slowly ending
The system is flawed let the cycle begin again
I see the smiles on their censored faces and their empty stares and I know this world
Is long past due for real change
Let me be your indecision
let my side be the indifference of choice
Sick and begging on the sidelines
(it doesn't matter if you're right as long as you win)
If you could live again would you be empty and alone
Sick and begging on the sidelines
(it doesn't matter if you're right as long as you win)
If you could live again would you be empty and alone
Track Name: Need To Exist
The same god
A different war
Here on the edge we make our last stand
Manipulated by static this is our new world of stares
In your presence we hold
Our present state lets go
We've stumbled with no cause
Become the unthinking horde
You'll never take our voice
In our final moments we'll truly know desire
We'll understand our need to exsist
The cause of our downfall
I'll watch the smoke block out the sun
Rising from our bridges
There will be nothing else
Just ashes and tyrants
After the world
We'll still want more
If they could see
Unmarked graves could speak
We'd perceive through the static
We'd heal this fucking disease
We will unite or we'll fall
Our greed's insatiable
Build this up brick by brick until our final call
 
You'll never take our voice
In our final moments we'll truly know desire
We'll understand our need to exsist
The cause of our downfall
I'll watch the smoke block out the sun
Rising from our bridges
There will be nothing else
Just ashes and tyrants
I'll watch the smoke block out the sun
Rising from our bridges
There will be nothing else
Just ashes and tyrants
Wake up the world and finally see
(this fire's burning and I can't stop it)
This false cause of profit will bring us to our knees
(this fire's burning and I can't stop it)
If you bar the windows our opportunities will soon be gone
If you bar the windows our opportunities will soon be gone
We will hold on
Track Name: The Abyss Stared Back
When all the pictures
Lose their colour
Black and gray silhouettes
Are lost in the static
I want to taste your sunshine
On a bed of nails
You look to the man in the sky
But he was never there
When all the walls of false perception
Are crumbling at our feet
We will all remain
In a world
Where we can't
Take it all back
I don't know what I am
but I don't belong here I
Spent years in a peaceful world
Now it's time for the relapse
As the abyss stared back
Over my shoulder
I saw there were rays of light
It's almost over
After all the false promises of change
I've lost count of all we could have been